本当に真剣に書こうとするとき、何となくイメージしていた感覚や言葉にしてこなかった考えが整理されるような感じがする。巡る思いを書いて、何度も何度も書き直してそれを読むことで「そうか、オレはそう思っていたのか」と改めて気づかされることがある。映画を観て、また本を読むなどして直感的にハッとしたセリフもあった。そうやって少しずつ言葉が自分の中で蓄積されて今がある。でも大切なのはその培った思いや言葉が「真実」かどうか常に確かめながら生きること。「もしかしたら次の瞬間全く反対の思いを授かるかもしれない」。そういう危険を恐れない強さを持ち続けたい。だから書きたいと思う。

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Writing.

　When I am really serious about writing, I feel as if I can somehow organize the sensations I had imagined and the thoughts I had not put into words. Writing down the thoughts that go through my mind, rewriting them over and over again, and then reading them, I sometimes realize anew, “Oh, so that’s what I was thinking. There were also lines that came to me intuitively after watching movies and reading books. In this way, the words gradually accumulated in my mind, and here I am today. What is important, however, is to live your life while constantly checking whether or not the thoughts and words you have cultivated are “true. The next moment, you may receive a completely opposite thought. I want to keep the strength not to be afraid of such risks. That is why I want to write.